Big Brother, Little Sister

For the most part, I love having an older brother. He gets to try (almost) everything first. We are a lot alike, and so we end up doing a lot of the same things. Take school, for instance. I always followed in Gray's shadows. I used to hate it. All my teacher's came to know me as "gray's sister". Expectations were already set for me based on him. But as I thought about it today, I really realized how much it rocks having Gray as an older brother. He is smart, talented, humorous, nasty, great, boyish, stupid, and way knowledgeable about almost anything.

One experience Gray got to try before me was college applications, and I am not bummed at all. He was the first one, so things didn't go quite as planned. We all imagined Gray getting lots of money for scholarships and going to a great school away from home. He got lots of money, but not enough since we (the kids) have to pay for college ourselves, and he was accepted everywhere he applied (except for Stanford). So the plan for him is to attend Mary Washington and live at home for a year, then go on a mission for the LDS Church for two years, and then transfer .

But now I am freaked about this whole college thing. I need money for college--major scholarships. Some full rides would be really nice and greatly appreciated. I am probably more worried about college than any other junior in my school. I need to really do almost anything I can this summer. I applied for a summer program at VCU, but unfortunately was denied. It would have looked great on college applications, but instead I am going to apply for a two week mentorship and a Chesapeake Bay Trip. That will look good, too.

Gray's college experience has made me nervous. And grateful. Grateful that I was not the first Kemmey kid to apply for colleges, and that I have a lot more insight about it now just from watching Gray.